I'm looking out the window and it is fair to say that it's a pretty mank day. The sky is grey and the whole place just looks dull. I love winter, but not this murky, bleak scene. I like cold frosty days where you can't go out without wearing a heavy coat and a hat and a chunky scarf. I like layering clothes so that you feel all cosy and warm. I like the sky to be clear and the sun to be shining. I don't like when th sun can't see down into the world. I don't like feeling trapped by this blanket of clouds that is covering my world.

And on a Saturday evening I like coming home and actually talking a little bit to my family when my aunt is over for dinner. I don't even mind it if my mother makes us go to mass. I actually seem to be able to do homework on a Saturday night, which is unusual. Fridays, Fridays are the nights for going out and having fun. Saturdays are for shopping in town and going for numerous cups of coffee. Sundays are get-up-early days and going for a walk on the beach with the dogs and strolling along the seafront and having some more coffee, or maybe even breakfast.

Well, for me anyway.

I'm back at school a month and a half now, and things are going downhill. I started out ok, but now I'm procrastinating. Alot. This blog even, everything. It's all an escape from that desk and those books. My latest thing has been ordering prospectuses (prospectii?) from various universities in Ireland. It's as though I still think I'm doing something academic, but really what use are prospectuses and courses if I don't have the points?

So I'm going to say it here, in the hope that I take this blog somewhat seriously. From now on I'm going to try my best. This doesn't mean studying every minute of every day. Fuck no. But merely doing my homework once I come home, and studying for my tests. Not leaving stuff to the last minute, but at the same time going out and enjoying myself.

This year I already cut back from two days to one day of tennis, and I also gave up Speech and Drama. I think this could all have been a bad idea. See, if I had alot more on my plate, I'd probably feel like I can't neglect my schoolwork or else I'll have to give up X. But now that X doesn't exist...I'm don't really feel like I'm neglecting anything as such.

But I'm going to give it a go again. Go at it with a new spurt of energy and enthusiasm. And hope for the best.

No more self-counselling posts anymore, I promise!